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Here I am, awake at 3 in the morning. I go on Facebook to simply read all my unread notifications, and I see one by my messages. I think that it’s a friend replying to assisting me with my English project, so I click it with a smile.

That smile drops. It’s been three years. I added him earlier in the day because I need to get over whatever bullshit happened. It’s been too long. Yet, that one statement brought upon me a whole world that I had thrown away, and that one statement made me tear up. But no, I won’t cry. Not again.

It came at me from out of the blue. I thought I’d have the first word, to be honest. But he did, and right now, I just want to resolve everything.

I have no idea where I want to go with this post. My mind is in more of a tangled mess than it was earlier.

Grow the fuck up. People are tired of giving you attention. Stop jumping from one person to another when the other person gives up. You think people care anymore? I wish I still could, but remember that the reason why I don’t anymore is because of your stupidity. Stop forgetting those who are in front of you, and stop caring once they’re gone. You’re the one fucking up. Get that through your dense head.

I want to be your everything that you ever wanted. I want to be perfect and take all your worries away. I want to cuddle with you and love you every night and every day. I want to make you smile when you see me. I want to be your one and only. I want to be honest about everything so we don’t have to hide anything. I want to be the person you want to be with all the time and can’t ever get off your mind. I want you to want me. Out of all of it I just want you to be mine.

(Source: mikelol.com)