I’m such an ugly person.

I really don’t even bother with saying such things about my outer appearance; I have good and bad days. But my personality and the choices I make… how can I consider myself to be a good person? How can I call myself anything other than ugly? No one knows me better than myself, and knowing all the terrible thoughts that go through my head and the horrible choices I make. I’m so ugly and so undeserving of anything good in life.

No, I can’t pinpoint the exact moment when I started having such low self-esteem, but no matter how many people tell me otherwise, I refuse to believe that I’m a good person. They only see my good side while I’m stuck looking at myself in a mirror, at all the ugly aspects of myself. If it were easier for me to see something in me, I think I would’ve gotten over this lack of confidence a long time ago. But no, I’m a terrible person. So, so ugly.